Whew. Had a little scare there...I was walking thru graduation ceremonies when I realized I hadn't done my final report for my internship. Man, if this wasn't too late, what was?? I figured I might just have to do the internship over again, and maybe not get my diploma for another semester. But luckily, an angel of mercy...aka the internship coordinator, emailed me yesterday. "I have to get my final grades in tomorrow by 5pm. I have no final report from you. Please advise." *sigh* She's such a lovely person :) Anyhoooo, I got it done last night and I can officially breathe easier as a college grad :)

"The true test of faith must come from within." --Me

I was reading thru past journal entries and found this..."My waking hours are bearable but somewhere in the evening I just keep wishing that the next day will come and somehow I will love it. Been so long since I loved it." I've since found my way out of that valley and am enjoying the view from the mountain top, but I know I won't be up here forever. There are seasons in life as in everything else. Sometimes we truly must exist at survival level. Take comfort in the fact that those hard times make us much more appreciative of the blessings.

"Artists create because it doesn't make sense to do anything else. 'If you don't have the money to make a movie, steal the camera, steal the film. You have to want it that bad.' " --Nicolas Cage at *my* graduation :)

What a night! Everytime I hang out in LA, I promise myself that I will do it more often. Very cool little event we had last night. It was a great time. And have I mentioned my boss is hilarious?? We took a company pic and who do you think had his arm around me? The Big O himself. Don't I just feel special :) Anyway, we hit the town for bit after the Thumb thing. All in all, a long day after 2 hours of sleep, but well worth it.

Hmmm, 1.75 hours of sleep does not a morning person make. I had some wierd stuff flyin thru my head last night and I just couldn't sleep. Not that I would've gotten more than 3 hours even if I had been able to crash immediately. I hate it when I know I have a limited amount of sleep time and my brain just won't shut up. There was totally something else I was going to say...

Good day all in all. And tomorrow I am going to a screening,YAY! I get to go schmooze with network exec's. Hmmm, what to wear :) Well, I have to finish cutting this scene so...

Oh, BTW I bought a great cd at the festival of this girl I saw perform. Her name is Shemika Copeland, awesome blues singer, grammy nominated at the ripe old age of 22. I definately suggest checking this one out.

About Kaycee...

So she's not real it seems, not the way we thought we knew her. But here's what I think: I will be the first to admit that I am touched by fiction quite often. And in this case, I was touched by the words. The person behind the words was not terribly close to me, and I know that is not the case for some. I'm sure many feel betrayed, but the intentions here were good, and I don't think I was the only one that was inspired. There was a better way to go about this, but it's over now. I have to take the good with me and leave the rest behind.

My body is weary and my mind is clouded from fatigue. I need to find inner clarity and bring it outward. Namaste.

Good Lord, will that work?

Did I mention that this wacky dj person woke me up on Saturday? Okay, maybe that was rude actually, "DJ" (Sixxx, that is) woke me up. I still can't call him that. So funny when he called though, it took a bit for me to figure out who it was. Don't you hate when ppl call and don't tell you who they are?

Terribly sad that Kaycee has passed. Sad for us I mean. But I feel lucky to have known her, even as minimally as I did. Her sunshine lit the space around everytime I read her words, and I don't think it will fade.

"I been changin'. Think it's funny how no one knows." --Matchbox 20

Interesting weekend. I took a step. It wasn't so much the actual step that made a difference to me, but rather the crossing from one side of a line to the other. I will continue to walk on, but the first step always makes you turn and peek over your shoulder.

I'd like to brag that I have the whole weekend off, but here it is 3:50 am on Saturday and I am still at work. The good news is I don't have to come back until Monday. Next week shouldn't be so bad *hopes*.

I got a glimpse of our furry little friend here at the office. Yup, you guessed it, we have a mouse. Rumor has it he lives in one of the speakers in the Avid bay. I guess he likes Steve's voice or something. Todd promises we will get a trap set on Monday, until then I'm keeping my feet up on a chair.

A time to blog--

There hasn't been one, or maybe I haven't felt like it. Anywho, I'm here now. Been busy a gal. Editing my little heart out and last night I found out that some of my cuts made it in a final version of the scene, woooo! I really do love this job.

A word about editors: since they sit for hours, staring at monitors, they a get little crazy when you let them out of their editing bays.

Advice: NEVER put 5 of them in a car and try to go get ice cream. Trust me.

Just got an email message from classmates.com...a truly odd experience, to see that someone you haven't seen in years has been looking for you. I'm feeling very good that they found me. Whoa. *shakes head* Whoa.