I am not feeling very triumphant this morning. Had something on my mind last night which made it rough to sleep. My mind just really wants to let it go, so I think...I will go hop in the shower and rinse my cares away. I have too little time to let needless worry creep in.

I sure do have a lot to say lately...for me anyways. The internet has been like a room full of deaf people to me for the last week or so. I keep talking, but no one else is and no one is listening. Oh well, then it's all me.

So the suspense has been terminated, I did NOT win a Ronnie. For the split second after the winner's name was announced I felt a deep pang of disappointment, but only for that split second. The truth is: I liked the film that did win and the nominee was one of my friends (Insert shout-out to Jesse here). But even more comforting than that was the fact that what my fellow students will be fighting for in the next few months, I already have. I am a professional. The ceremonial graduation I do or do not walk through in 27 days will not have the impact of the transition I felt when I got hired at O. I do appreciate the acknowledgement in the nomination (I think I even have a certificate around here somewhere) and I had a great evening with my friends. As I was driving home, I could not get the music loud enough. Fireworks lit up the sky over Disneyland, adding even more triumph to my mood. I love this.

You know what always makes me laugh? How perturbed I get when the status of my inbox doesn't change from 2am to 7am. I'm such a kook. :)

I'm singin' the late night digitizing blues :) It's all good though. I could've gone home hours ago, but I want to get this all in tonight, so I can be here for less time tomorrow. Truth be told, I want to finish the story reel tonight, and if I had everything digitized right now I'd try to do it...but there wouldn't be enough time, and oh yeah, no one asked me to do it :) Not really (reely) my job, but I was never too fond of boundaries anyway. Don't hold me back!

Work work work...but in a good way. I started my new job on Monday and absolutely hit the ground running. No intro, no nuthin' I think that's why these folks hired me, so they could skip all the pleasantries and get down to work. Not that I mind, doing my internship there was the best choice I could have made at this point, heh, it got me a job. :) Anyway, I've been having wierd dreams and somehow all of the faces I've been watching on those monitors are creeping up in my slumber world. Feeling a little strange this morning, but then again it's just another day and they can't all feel the same.

Soon as I get to work today...

Buzz: Andrea, you *are* here. I need to talk to you. Let me see your thumbs.

Wierdos :)

I loooooove to sleep. I know it's incredibly boring of me to love sleep, but it's just so wonderful. My bed was extra cozy this morning, I couldn't help hitting snooze a few extra times. Feeling all warm and snuggly and tucking my comforter around me, it was positively blissful. I have a love/hate relationship with mornings. I really do enjoy what morning feels like, with the cool bright sunrays. And the freshness of a new day makes me want run barefoot through a field of poppies...still it is cruel morning that makes me leave the absolute comfort of my sanctuary of rest. Ah well...

Caught the last 10 minutes of "The Weakest Link" last night. Interesting. People cry, I've never seen a game show make people cry.

BTW: Got nominated for the "Ronnies" (Our student film awards)

Dare I say it? Are we done shooting? Maaaaaaaaybe. My heart beats wildly at the thought that I might just be able to maintain this project by phone and not lose anymore sleep in the name of ridiculously slow-moving productions. I think our actress said it well, "Oh, parting is such sweet sorrow...see ya."

First day at "O" today. I wish I were more rested, but I will just have to drag myself thru.

A night full of puns from "Flicker-looking-good" to "Sit here so I can put my feet up on you and you can be my..." "Ottoman?" "Well, otto-woman." I know, I know you had to be there. Forget it, it's too late to try and be coherent...

Ever just sit down and talk for an hour with someone you've never spoken to before. I did it this morning. It's so funny because I never cease to be amazed by how different people are from my preconceived notions, but also how many things we have in common.

Things were really getting to me last night, but I just had to stop for a minute to gain some perspective. And right when I finished complaining about all of the time I don't have, I volunteered to take on a few more tasks. I'm insane, I tell you.

Another wedding this weekend, but thankfully I'm not in it. It will be like a mini high school reunion. The "player" is getting married. The guy that used to sit behind me and read my notes, take my yearbook home for a week and end up writing "Have a bitchen summer." He's actually saying his "I do"s. Interesting how the years are molding us. As I get farther away from my adolescence, I understand more of what it was about.

I entered the apartment at dusk, the darkness is growing around me. For some reason, I don't want to disturb this peace with light. Any modern convention except the soft glow of my computer screen seems barbaric. The children in the complex have quieted and the only thing audible is the steady wooshing sounds of freeway traffic. A light breeze streams through the house and I am finding myself very relaxed. A moment to be savored. Close your eyes, push your hectic life away from you for an instant and feel this.

"Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose."

So what are *you* wearing?

Owowowowowow--OW. Ortho this morning...ick, I hate that place. My poor mouth has been throbbing for the last 4.5 hours, even after 4 advil. I'm going to go lay down. :(

Well, it's official. I'm a Yuppie. I just got hired fulltime at a real job. A post-college job. In my field. I still don't think it has hit me yet, but I'm actually at the next level. I am now a professional. I'm not a student anymore. My feet have hardly touched the ground since yesterday afternoon.

Hi dee hi dee hi dee hi! Ho dee ho dee ho dee ho!

Zat what you wanted Ollie? :)

People are great, but even the best can let you down. I suppose it's my own fault for thinking unrealistically optomistic thoughts about all people. I just want to believe the best. I hope that no matter how many times I endure this type of awakening I will learn a little more about myself and who I want to be. I screw up a lot. Everybody does.

"When I do good, I feel good. When I do bad, I feel bad. And that's my religion."
-Abe Lincoln

Yes, I stole it from John :) But it works, especially for me right now. Simple is best.

Off to be a bridesmaid, this is round 5 for me. I am thinking of putting my skills as a member of the wedding party on the market:

"Professional bridesmaid--Excells in walking slow, smiling, and holding flowers. Comes equipped with deep purple, hunter green, and navy blue dresses. The perfect match for any groomsman, height is no issue."

Hmmm, now what would I charge for this?

Am I exhausted? Yes. After moving stuff into my new apartment all day, we had a shoot that lasted until 4:32am. And now I am at work. I got here at 9:26am. I will be here until noon and then at my internship until 7pm. Then we will shoot again from 10pm to ??? My goal is to survive this week and not get sick or pass out. I could lay out the rest of my week for you all, but it is stressful to even think about. This is what I do today, tomorrow is a whole "nother" story ;)