*Deep breath*

Well, I am doing much better today. Yesterday, as some of you know, I was losing it. Stress can be a really nasty thing. But I was able to pull it all together and actually get some things done. I think the tension-breaking point was when my orthodontist was writing a referral for me. He carefully outlined my case in very official terms, then added as a note on the bottom, "Andrea is a worry wart." That man teases me a lot, but it always makes me feel better. He cocks his head to the side and says, "Naaaaah, there's nothing to worry about. What're you worrying for?" Then he tossles my hair and makes me feel like I am eleven. So I walk out the office a little lighter. I mean, how many worries did *you* have at eleven?

The Oscars. I love the Oscars. I watch every year. Tis my favorite telecast. Everyone always has so much to say when they are over. I have my opinions too, on who won, who should've won, etc. Sometimes the worthy win, sometimes they are passed over. Sometimes past wrongs are righted, sometimes trends sweep through the categories. The thing that really gets me is when someone holds that little statue in unbelief. The people that stand on the stage and bask in the light of that honor. The truly appreciative recipients are what make it worthwhile for me. Some of my favorite Oscar moments:

"I think it is one hell of an honor and I am thrilled." --Jack Lemmon

"You are the people that made want to be...and actor." --Whoopie Goldberg

"I can't deny the fact that you like me! Right now! You like me!" --Sally Fields

"Oh my GOD!" --Kim Basinger

"I'm on cloud nine!" --Jessica Tandy

"I love the world! I'm so happy!" --Julia Roberts

"Is it bad to say I really wanted this?" --Steven Spielberg

Plan of attack: okay, so I don't really have one yet. All I know is I better come up with something fast. I got ahead in the race with my hectic life, so I slowed down to enjoy the view. I am now suddenly aware that it is going to come crashing down on me with ever-growing momentum. Run, run, run....

I am really itching to get out of here today. I rarely enjoy being at my job, but today I just want to leave. I want to drive. I want to go to the beach. Can't think of the last time I was able to just sit and think. When you have a pressing schedule, just thinking seems like a waste of time. Today is a "play hooky" day if there ever was one, but I have obligations so I will not be answering the call to adventure. Maybe this weekend. My mind needs a break from the chaos. Today I am left to daydream....

YOUR REFLECTION

The good you find in others, is in you too.

The faults you find in others, are your faults as well.

After all, to recognize something you must know it.

The possibilities you see in others, are possible for you as well.

The beauty you see around you, is your beauty.

The world around you is a reflection, a mirror showing you the person you
are.

To change your world, you must change yourself.

To blame and complain will only make matters worse.

Whatever you care about, is your responsibility.

What you see in others, shows you yourself.

See the best in others, and you will be your best.

Give to others, and you give to yourself.

Appreciate beauty, and you will be beautiful.

Admire creativity, and you will be creative.

Love, and you will be loved.

Seek to understand, and you will be understood.

Listen, and your voice will be heard.

Teach, and you will learn.

Show your best face to the mirror, and you'll be happy with the face
looking back at you.

--Author Unknown

Thanks for sharing, Jess.

Several things that happened in the 75 minutes I was away from the office today:

1) I saw a guy walking, holding a cell phone upside down (antenna into palm). When it rang he hit the "talk" button and still holding it upside down, he said, "Aliens." Maybe it was a password or something.

2) "Here is your moist towelette..." I read the instructions on a moist towelette packet. "Tear open and use." I will forever be amused by this because of Ash :)

3) I "car danced" to a tune on the radio with the guy in the next car at a stop light.

4) I found out that we change time for Spring on my birthday, so my birthday will be here one hour sooner, woooo!

I am wearing my slippers at work today :)

I will not blog about my weekend. I think a lot of people have heard enough about it and I see no need to recap. If you're really interested let me know and I'll fill you in. Due to the massive lack of sleep over the course of my weekend, I crashed hard last night. 12 hours of catch-up sleep, and I feel much better. The drive was unending last night, I fell into my bed as soon as I got home.

There is so much I want to say, but instead I think I will just note that I have some really great friends. I'm lucky to have all of you. I appreciate everything you say to me and everytime you listen to what I have to say. And random strangers in airports think I'm right too :)

Today is an interesting day in the world of blogging, between Kaya's mastocation mishap, and Merc calling Orange County and San Diego "LA" about 7000 times. {Mid-blog rant: Merc, you are staying at my apartment tonight, and you've quoted me twice this week, yet my name is unseen. Where's the love??} Actually, "the love" seems to be running rampant today. If you read the same blogs I do, you may have noticed a "Thanks for reading my blog. You are so cool." trend. And while I want to spread the love too...I think I will just tell you all one by one, as I have done in the past, that I think you're cool. But I do love it when blog topics intersect. It's like a digital chain reaction. Happy blogging, everyone!

I've been thinking, I don't know who reads this. And I am not sure I should say what I'm going to say.

I spent the better part of last evening venting to a good friend. I am very frustrated with a project I am currently involved with and it is making me realize a few things. 1) Just because you say you've worked on a movie set doesn't mean you are productive. 2) I guess not all people feel pressure to be on top of their job when they know others are relying on them, as I do. 3) It is not good when the leader doesn't know where they are going.

Last weekend Jason said (in reference to the technical difficulties we were having) "We have never done a shoot this unprofessional." Jason, you have no idea how professional we were. And I am so glad we worry about being professional. This is an emmense learning experience, but somehow I am learning completely different things than I thought I would. Still, they are useful in helping me determine what kind of professional I want to be.

*Yawn* I spent all afternoon/evening yesterday (6.5 hours) going from thrift shop to thrift shop looking for props and set dec. Also spent a fair amount of time in the army surplus store, where they play marches 24/7...eek. Anyway, we are almost ready for the shoot this weekend, just a few odds and ends left to pick up. Looks like I am doing make up and I have to go get all of the food. My mind is consumed at this point, though there is much else I need to be doing. Ah well, hopefully no one will notice. :)

I agree with Claire. Sundays are bizarre, they are like a weekly glimpse into another dimension, where time is perceived very differently. The afternoon sunlight is extra golden and the hours between 1:00pm and 8:00pm seem to drag on. Sunday is the only day of the week you can *feel* the sun setting. I felt it yesterday. I was sitting at the table with my mom doing my taxes and I looked out the window, for a long moment I felt the world slow to a crawl. Nothing seemed to move, no one spoke. There was only breathing, slow silent air.

"There's just something about Sunday night that makes you want to kill yourself...and that creepy "60 Minutes" clock that sounds like your whole life ticking away." (Anybody who knows what that is from gets a prize : )

Wooooooo! 10 hours of much needed sleep, BABY! I just feel so good, like I can do anything today. It's the first day in a long time that I don't look like I've been run over by a large freight vehicle. I have tons to do, but I'm so happy I don't even care!

Isaac flies in this morning. I probably won't see him until Saturday. Everyone is so excited about his visit, me included. Hopefully, the video shoot will go well and he can have some fun and play while he's in Cali. It should be loads of fun.

I have the most severe craving for chocolate covered raisins and peanuts.

Busy...so busy. My life is insanity right now. It seems every time my life gets hectic, it gets exponentially worse than the last time. This is easily the busiest I have ever been in my life. Just to give a taste: I have a job (4 days a week), and internship (3 days a week), a full load at school (2 days a week), I am assistant director for a student film currently in production (everyday), I am moving, in a wedding, and preparing for surgery. *Relaxation breathing* Right now I have control of it all but I am not sure I can maintain control for the next 3 months as required. The up side is with every passing day I feel more capable, more confident.

With all that being said, please excuse my neglect of the blog...I had actually forgotten about it all week :) And if you are wondering what's going on with me, drop an email in my inbox and I'll tell ya ;)